Tuesday, April 21, 2009
as i sat in front of my computer last thursday afternoon..
dear dear was not on my screen the whole time..
even till the time i left..
it was the dinner with the industry pple for opportunities..
to me.. it was the day of hope..
is it either happiness or more waiting to come..
i waited and waited in anxiety for an answer to come..
when i finally got his call in the car..
i teared.. that's the kind of anxiety i was experiencing..
but then slowly along anticipated answer revealed to me..
'dear dear, i decided to come back for good..'
i was screaming in joy in my heart lah..
i have finally waited for an answer i having been praying for..
having decided sometime back yet not telling me really made me thought abt so many things..
but thank you dear for telling me only when u are very sure..
i pray that this is the best and the right choice for him too..
i too dont want him to have decided on it because of me only..
July is when my happinness is coming back to me..
your princess.Y12:56 AM
Thursday, April 9, 2009
back from shenzhen, hk..
haven got the time to post the photos of food I ate..
I feel tt I lost a bit but no change in weight still...
I need to lose more!
I started learning rhumba.. so FUN!
I like! perfect hip and waist exercise.. so is essential dance..
today is delicated for exercising.. after the service is easter dance practice followed by 4 classes of yoga.. haha. I don know if I can make it.. haha..
your princess.Y8:02 PM
Friday, April 3, 2009
me and dear dear had a lttle arguement yest that leads to my unhappiness..
as it always does when we are on the conversation..
i decided nv to talk abt it again till he is back..
coz there's no point arguing over skype when nothing can be done..
im not really actually angry with him anyway..
just angry with myself..
anyway.. all is fine now..
i'm simply so easy to coax..
we are back to lovey dovey..
hahahaha
your princess.Y1:39 AM
I was a great night out with the aunties..
Was glad i cancelled mani and pedi for them..
we started the night with dinner at crystal jade then drinks at villa bali..
we brought along with us cakes from canele..
From faking that it was my birthday just to eat the cakes..
to having a lizard on my leg!!
hahhahahaha
when i finally got home at 3am in the morning..
i had so much thoughts in my mind..
chat over porridge with kelly was such an enriching one..
it made me realized that it was high yime i learn to live not in other's shadows..
it's time i should really find focus in my life and focus on God and move away from the past that i have been dwelling in..
it's time i learn how to control my body with my mind and achieve mind over body..
i wanna set my eyes on God and walk towards him and catch up with all i have missed..
Though i have made my first step.. i think there's more i can do..
is GTC for me has been a question for so long.. i think i need to step out of my comfort zone and give it a try myself and not for anyone..
Though dancing has always been my passion but is dancing in GTC keeping me with God or away from God?
i think i should start learning to take up reading, i should pick a book out from my shelf and try reading it..
i have to discipline myself to pray too.. for family, grandpa, mum, dear dear, relationship, directions, friendships and wisdom..
your princess.Y12:57 AM
